(I took this picture in Singapore. It’s a painting by Jose Joya called “A Dimension of Fear.” I saw it and thought, “Yep.”) Sa totoo lang, I don’t really like talking about what happened. Not because it’s painful or shameful for some reason or what pero kasi that for months…
Leave a commentI should probably just get over this push-and-pull of whether or not I should go back to blogging by coming up with something first draft-y to get it over with. Yesterday was my 39th birthday, which was as good a time as any to not start blogging again. I had…
Leave a commentI can’t. I can’t explain it to you. I thought I was doing better. I thought I had a grip on it. I thought I had finally acquired the kind of audacity it takes to actually be in the world, to not just be its wise-cracking commentator and occasional partner…
Leave a commentI’m 15 pages away from the end of my red comp book, which I have started filling up with three to six pages of fountain-pen-scribbled morning ramblings since June 15 of this year. I have impulsively titled the notebook UNPACKING in teal marker because there was space for a label.…
Leave a commentKakagaling ko lang kahapon sa unang araw ng Philippine Readers and Writers Festival dahil may katropa akong nasa isa sa mga panel nung umaga, at ang dami kong opinyon. 1. Ang daming pera ng NBS, an understatement Although nakakakilig ang venue dahil nasa Raffles Makati ang festival, at mahuhulaan mong…
Leave a commentPara sa mga katropang nasasabihang malungkot nang “walang dahilan” I. Paano ba kasi mawala? Isang umaga, ang mawala na lang, nang matapos na ‘to. Ang ‘di maipaliwanag na bigat sa dibdib. Gusto ko na’ng mamatay Ang galit sa kamao, ang hirap pigilan. T@ng!na mo gago ka, Pero mahal magbasag. Tapos ikaw pa…
Leave a commentSo gusto ko lang markahan ang araw kung kailan na-realize ko na mahalaga pala ang pagdesisyunan agad ang framing at POV bago simulang tahakin ang pagsusulat ng isang kwento. Kwento ko lang. So matagal ko na nililigawan ang kwentong ‘to, mga tatlong buwan na rin. At least itong version ng…
Leave a commentI once took pride in myself buying 99-peso earphones (the really old Creative ones that play mono because hey no time for a splitter) from the Octagon Superstore and making do until it gives up on me, which is, because 99 pesos, fairly fast. I’m notorious for buying really bad…
Leave a commentTo make myself feel better about myself, I’m going to say this was inevitable. That anybody on a journey towards taking better care of oneself (one’s self? BAH! autocorrect in your heads, mofos) will experience these strange uncalled for pauses in routine that feel daunting. See, my last update was…
Leave a comment100 Days of Writing: Days 27 and 28 I was hoping being done with the big project at my gig would free me to write even more, but they gave me a new thing where I was happy talking to a lot more people but a bit apprehensive at being…
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